Been Awhile……again

I really need to get into a swing of writing more often.  I find that when I purge my feelings here, I feel more centered.  Life has happened lately, never seems to be enough time to do the things I want to do, see the things I want to see, or be with the people I want to be with most.

 

Spent the Thanksgiving holiday back home in good old NY.  Seems that “plague” was going around, however no one informed us before we got there.  Fast forward to the travel home, and I was the lone healthy person in the plague-mobile.  Both hubby and child down with a case of the creeping-stuffy-cruds-with-cough.  Other than the germ-fest, the visit was nice.  Due to the death of my sister-in-law’s Mother, I was unable to get to Boston to see my daughter.  I am hopeful that maybe she can come out here in the Spring.  We are definitely planning for the Summer of ’09, but would both love to see each other sooner.

We haven’t spoken on the phone in a few months, and e-mails have been sporadic at best, but when we dio talk in emails it is nice.  She is so sweet, and always ends with ‘I love you and miss you’, but it just seems like there is something…….missing.  I can’t explain it.  I know there have been a lot of things I have wanted to say to her, or ask her, but I hesitate.  I wonder if she is doing the same thing.  I do know that when we do get together again F2F, I am going to have a list ready.  LOL!!  Right now, I feel like I have to follow her lead, and when she is ready to talk deeply about her adoption, and any feelings she may or may not have, I will be ready.  Such is life here.  Keeping the status quo.

Little One’s First family will coming over around Christmas.  That should be fun, and I am sure she will have a blast running around with all of her cousins.  Her First Mom had a baby in October, and LO had a nice time seeing her when we visited in the hospital.  J has been hopping from her Mom’s house to the boyfriend’ s mom’s house, so we haven’t seen her since the birth.  We have spoken a few times, and all seems well there.  I talk to her mother more than I talk to her. 

LO is doing well in gymnastics, and loves going to school.  She really seems to be growing up.  If I could only get the “sassy” under control.  I am told it is a phase, and am very hopeful.

That’s about it from the nut hut.  I am going to go and take some Thera Flu, as now I have come down with whatever I brought home in the car.  Fun Fun.  Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving.  Looking forward to Christmas, since my Mom and 2 of 3 brothers will be here to celebrate it with us.  Should be really nice.  Promise to get back on the wagon with this blog thing.  I am finding I need it more and more.